I was not counting down to this appointment. I was not filled with nerves as I waited for the dr to come in. I was feeling great and while I wasn't sure how things would look, I wasn't stressing out. Dr. V came in and I noticed how short my cervix looked before he even traced it. The numbers came back 1.7 and 1.3. The funneling was back and it was all the way to the stitch. The screen looked dramatically different than it did a little over a week ago.
He said, you need to stop what you're doing. You need to cut out activities. "I have! I'm already doing that" He shook his head, ok well you need to do less, I don't like this change. His French-Canadian accent was thick as he told me, "You need to stop working". These were the words I did not want to hear. Money has been very tight as my work as been slow and I've already been cutting back. My savings is not where I thought it would be at this point because there just hasn't been much work for me. I explained to him how little I work and he just shook his head and said I needed to cut it out. I didn't ask any more questions about my cervix or anything. I was so unprepared this time for some reason.
The truth is, I know I've been doing too much. My shower was a little overwhelming and I've been over doing it on household chores and going out for meals while my family was here. I'm not sure why I thought I could do so much, but I think it's because I've been feeling really good and was just so tired of not doing anything. So now I'm back to permanently being planted on the couch. I"ll stop cooking the few meals I was doing each week and will rely on friends, family and B to pick up my slack.
I cannot get out of work for a couple hours Monday, and may have to do an hour or two on Wednesday. I know I shouldn't, but it's just easier for me to finish it out and then stop taking on assignments. I hope I don't regret it, but besides the drive, it's not much different than being at home.
I go back a week from Monday to see how things look.